At Midnight Mass for Christmas, I didn't go to communion. I wasn't
properly disposed (I need to go to confession, and haven't made it yet!)
For us Bead Squeezing Mackerel Snappers, it kind of a big deal.
But I didn't waste my time going to Mass either. There are currently a lot of problems in the house--from financial (welcome to the modern American Economy!) to two divorces in process.
It's been tense.
But when we went to services tonight, the Lords used my indisposition to teach me something. Not being able to partake of Communion was very hard. Very hard. Yet it was also instructive to me. Hell is a lot like that. You will know, in perdition, Who is Lord, but be separated from him for all eternity. Something to show n\me to try harder to live as he said! Not only did he teach me something, the tensions--bordering animosity in the house--fell away, and we knit as a family again.
At the same time as I was being taught a lesson, he also showed is his immense mercy, for I was given ample opportunity for Adoration of Him. One of the EEMs--tasked with giving Communion to the Choir, stood next to me, and I was able to Adore Him. I will always adore him, no matter where my soul ends up.
On this day, not only did we celebrate the Nativity of the Lord, he showed to me--to me personally--great mercy, and a lesson I hope to keep dear.
There is always grace involved in attending Mass, even if one does not go to communion.
But I didn't waste my time going to Mass either. There are currently a lot of problems in the house--from financial (welcome to the modern American Economy!) to two divorces in process.
It's been tense.
But when we went to services tonight, the Lords used my indisposition to teach me something. Not being able to partake of Communion was very hard. Very hard. Yet it was also instructive to me. Hell is a lot like that. You will know, in perdition, Who is Lord, but be separated from him for all eternity. Something to show n\me to try harder to live as he said! Not only did he teach me something, the tensions--bordering animosity in the house--fell away, and we knit as a family again.
At the same time as I was being taught a lesson, he also showed is his immense mercy, for I was given ample opportunity for Adoration of Him. One of the EEMs--tasked with giving Communion to the Choir, stood next to me, and I was able to Adore Him. I will always adore him, no matter where my soul ends up.
On this day, not only did we celebrate the Nativity of the Lord, he showed to me--to me personally--great mercy, and a lesson I hope to keep dear.
There is always grace involved in attending Mass, even if one does not go to communion.
2 comments:
Merry Christmas, Red.
You and your family are in my prayers.
Thank you for your beautiful post about Our Lord.
I don't go to confession nearly enough and I have to sit out sometimes too. I am often moved to tears.
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